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Sunday, September 30, 2007
sometimes i wonder why am i so emo so much of the time
i want to just stay at home,hide,escape and act like the time's at a standstill too
too bad for me in army terms they call tt awol
i want to stop chasing after time stop having datelines piled up my head
i need to start smiling-smiling
i just keep chasing
keep running
running
runnin
21 weeks...den would it be better?
a year and 10months
would it be better?
i hate being the pile of sludge tt slows you down
i dont know how to feel anymore
i want to slow down to collect my thoughts
stop hyper threading so much its all a mangled pile of stuff in my head
and the effects really shows
i dont want to have to share stuff with anyone else but
i dont know if u want to
like i have a choice...
or options..there was a time when i really really loathe havin choice/options
vacaaation
europe...seeeeeem so farr ayway
u
life's better when u start breaking them down
but u cant deny it when it hurts
--
instead of using it as a shield
so you could hide yourself from every damm thing in the world
crap
like from where you feet , choices , actions and destiny leads you to
to spin wildly off track
and just about lose all the shackles clamped on you?
the people around you seem kind closely distant or distantly close
however you want to put it
just drop me into somewhere farrrrr away
to live a life with no agenda
and you know you can live with being alone
without having to look over your shoulders EVERY SINGLE BLOODY moment
seriously i need to get some stuff/people/things/options outta my life
PROFILE
:: ::
:: 25/05/88 ::
::Gemini::
:: Catholic High ::
:: Anderson JC ::
-oiale_ril@hotmail.com
LIKES
+ reading +
+ dreaming +
+ thefray +
+ deathcab +
+ smtngcorporate +
+ ocmixes +
+ U2 +
+ THE OC +
+ movies +
WANTS
*a direction* ARCHIVE
*an aim*
*a purpose*