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Friday, April 27, 2007
army was ok at the max
lotsa pent up frustrations
cant put it up my blog if i ever want to get anywhere
but at least i found a short term purpose and goal
just tt the passion is a lil lacking
and more importantly i learnt how to survive w/o the computer
omg applause for me pls
lil tired will update later
even dara
ha tt was the surprise if the week
the "big bro" i nvr had
he unknowingly always sorta get my thinking a lil straighter everytime i met him
tooo bad i'm a lil tired to post all the last dinner/supper/lunch photos
and yeah i'mm miss the free air and everyone
no ending summore
wtf
and i watched the final disc 3 times
i cant believe tt myself
dammmm emo fuck lah
no hair either
i am dammmmm tired but i dont want to sleep
not even nap
i dont want to waste freedom without reason
the only moments i felt ok in the whoole week
was the 2 hrs during the manu-roma game and 1 hr after tt which i spent "high-ing"
last manu match i am able to watch before gg in
thank u for the 7 goals
i had a gd time in timbre
happy birthday andy
frm timbre
to the park with the stalker cat
the tcc om talk
and msn emo
thanks
i think i'll just grab a line frm famous last words
thou its severly misquoted
the simple life lah
just pray u dont get the toilet post
plspls
jumped arnd and read bout posts of wayyyyyyyy past on other blogs
sorta a pity why i didnt keep my writings when i was back wearing green shorts
maybe if i had kept the blog
it probably wont be all filled mostly with nasty/sad stuff
so much for that
where were you while we we having fun
still remembered the two weeks "epidemic" break in sec 3
tot i was gonna save my ass from the stripping thing and lock out
haha
in the end we all still "tio" big time
and funny lil scuffles i'll remember
life in cat high is the only thing keeping me optimistic bout army
after all its the same 5days with nothing but balls for company isnt it
some ppl can totally crack me up lah
too bad the posts will soon be far and few between
aiya i totally shld have been more proactive in designing my room
at least then can blame ppl for not executin them
i want a sunroof....or a balcony
boredom almost always brings along the a'loneliness
hmm first night i've been so free in a while
no company for mj,stayovers,matches or drinks
"think" "think"
playing my wholeeeee collection of coldplay music juz to bring the emo to the nxt lvl
clocks..confusion nvr stops
fix you---fix meeeeeee
warning SignS!
hardest part
THE scientist--->
yelloWWWWW
T-R-O-U-B-L-E
ladder to the sun
freakily missing something
when ur feeling weird all the songs seems to be talking to/bout you
the problem is i've got no idea what i'm emoing over...cld be the army
yeah so i'm enlisting nxt thurs(and i tot it was on wed!)
and truthfully speaking i dont really give a damm bout what they do to u inside
i think i'm more than capable of handling it w/o getting into shit loads of trouble
and i'm more than ready to leave my hair behind(dont know y but i'm REALLY READY to shave)
maybe i dont like to leave my freedom behind
maybe i'm afraid of the nighmare of aj recurring
maybe i'm afraid of being left behind
maybe
maybes
go watch freedom writers
really good
plus...in certain ways it sorta struck a chord with me
i just wished ppl wont be all so cynical--and tried to give themselves the excuse tt they are just being pragmatic
and they would try to make a difference no matter how BIG or small
i admire ppl like bono and the gates,even al gore who is doing his lil battle raising awareness for global warming
ppl behind ONE maketradefair and the thousand of other ppl that are doing their part for a genuine cause
ppl that tries to make things difference no matter to millions to to just one..maybe THAT one
i have never tried hard enough..nvr..and only i know it
i just wished tt maybe i cld be someone tt cld make a difference
kinda make me think bout my blog too
stuff here just seemed so insignificant compared to all the shit ppl out there are getting
and dont we all blog to chronicle our lives and thoughts?
or maybe just to make ourself feel just that lil more important tt someone if anyone cared
sometimes i wished i would write a journal instaed of a blog
and someone i truly trusted/even respected wld read it
or maybe i just need to talk like coldplay sang
but then i wont get to see how we all grew up and moved on like how i managed to kinda revisit peeps lives mine included
and see how we all ctnd with life...not necessary in the right direction
nobody said it was easy
am i part of this disease?
dont get me wrong i'm not sad
it takes hellllll lots to bring me down
i'm just like they said..being kuai lan
like how i'll feel embarassed/tickled/confused/pissed when i look back at the many prev posts
i'm sure i'll feel something for this post when i move on a lil too
for the past 24 or more i had practically nothing to do
but to look at the sky frm the ledge at my grandma's
maybe look at the chickens nxt door
sends ur brains into overdrive
i'm pretty glad it didnt have me end up singing the chorus of THAT song frm grey's anatomy
hoho
me and my head
maybe its the inate prankster in me playing a joke on myself haha
naiveness and being cynical
are they like on the opposite ends of the spectrum?
i totally second phang on tt statement made on the 30th of march
and sorry hor...lions dont eat grass...not even on april fool's
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