Saturday, March 31, 2007
i guess the weirdest stuff happens during the period when u are stuck beween sleep and being awake
the sandman's favourite visiting hour
my brains a lil like my stomach right now..churning
a rather random thought @ 6:31 AM
em this is actually many posts lumped tgt
not been able to really put tgt a real entry the past week
just random nuggets of thoughts in the saved in the drafts
em ok
i kinda feel more at peace with myself now
sorta happened SUDDENDLY today either while going home or before i slept
sorta understood myself and yeah who i am a lil more
i guess the smile's all me(dont reckon i'll be a good agnsty personality type)
and so's the i wanna change the world some day
although i'll really like to get filthy rich part
coupled with the "i'm really afraid of failure now tt i got shitty grades" portion
and of course the "should i just leave it again" bit
i'm really glad cause i dont know but some how
these are all the thoughts i gathered while i was thinking thru ANOTHER lil problem
emm but still there still a lil LARGE portion of the jigsaw to be found
hair ruffling thoughts/or even without the hair
ruffle-ruffle-ruffle
i kinda realise i miss my job
not the actually having a job
but THE job
so life among the unemployed have been real good
thou we ARE rushing for time a lil here..
barely more than 2 weeks left
everyday's p-a-c-k-e-d
drinks,mj,tennis,mumbooojumboo,mj,tennis,pandamonium--for last week
mj,mj,tennis,mumbooojumboo,mj,tennis,pandamonium too--for this
see we're shaping up for a regimental lifestyle quite nicely
but i'm a lil outta shape,hur hur
i'm missin out on a lil reading,
emmm the funnny show on loan couresy of a certain weri--ohh i meant maro
and my night safari cum museum cum offshore island and sungei buloh trip
MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE
I DON'T LOVE YOU
Well when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way
When after all this time that you still owe
You're still the good-for-nothing
I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can
When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you like I did yesterday"?
Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you down and out
It's where you oughta stay
And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you like I did yesterday"?
Well come one, come on
When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you like I loved you yesterday"?
I don't love you like I do yesterday
I don't love you like I loved you yesterday
i just happen to really like this song
good thinking song
nothing else--dont try to read too much to the lyrics and into my life nope
this song and window in the skies
check out the music vid for that song
TOTAL rockass vid
damm weird
this is a lil disturbing
to think all the new shows i'll be watching
like the utt-linda liao show
i wont be completing them
ha and damm funny ah
my flobble's SUDDENDLY hit with a msges
with peeps not me pretending to be me saying they are not me
hey i like the sound of that
and it actually makes sense
ruffle ruffle ruffled..
a rather random thought @ 10:30 PM
feeling pretty darn gd this week..so far anyway
wrk's been nice
death is coming to the silver screen
death:the high cost of living better be one hella movie
gaiman is directing this himself
and wow stardust is already filmed and done
big names heading the film too
i can almost feel the anticipation overflowing from my every pore
a rather random thought @ 1:48 AM
hey u should go shoot urself
got choice to make make noise
no choice to make also make noise
life's a bitch
nobody's child
i've got many 18s to go man
its sad shit how the first 18 is gonna determine the next few 18's
its sad how life makes u insecure even when i'm he kind tt digs spontaneity
and ehh i cut off ALOT of my brown hair
its back to being short and black
really short
did it a lil in agst
but well i need more than a lil change
in fact i'm really lookin forward to going bald and living a regimental lifestyle(but probably by then i'll hate it..buts tt's always me)
hmm on to slightly lighter stuff
thou i missed some ep of the 7 pm show which stars ella
its damm funny lah
not bad tt a chinese show can manage to get my attention
its soo damm funny
but haa i really cant see guys not being laugh at when u declare ur a gay in a boys school hah
so much so tt the cross dressing part became kinda believeable
still its a show to crack u up and lets u run away from reality for an hour a day
a rather random thought @ 1:23 AM
300
go catch it
caught it on sneak day
its fantastic how the movie managed to capture the essence of the graphic novel so well
probably the BEST adaptation of any graphic novel on the big screen
pawns the likes of v for vendetta,sincity(two superb kickass movies) and the other superhero-y films
the execution is totally superb
thou the book is a lil more stylish..u cld always be a lil unrealistic when drawing stuff
this movie had a lil everything-mysticism,war,gore,stylish spilling of blood,the whole band of warriors theme-so who cares if the plot's a lil thin
everyone knows about the battle of Thermopylae anyway
and i like war films
i always think death brings about the rawest of human emotions
and i need a lil gore-therapy in my life right now anyway
and damm if troy makes u wanna work out.wait till u catch 300
if i had worked out 5hrs a day everyday since the end of the a's i might vaguely look like the spartans in the show
i'm watching it for a second time
i wanna watch it in imax
300-prepare for glory
a rather random thought @ 1:54 AM
i miss the days
when i'm a naive wide eyed boy(ok maybe not so wide)
when i'm giving without wanting to receive
when i'm working for a greater good
when i'm in a team
when i'm not so alone
when i cld smile a real smile and my laughter woud be hearty
when i'm not so cynical
when i'm not so tired of life
i've been talking alot to myself lately(like out loud) so i'm finding myself a lil freaky
i spent the day reading alot of stuff
mostly insignificant stuff
questionable content,wikipedia,and nearly all my entries on the blog
and i realised i missed myself the most
a rather random thought @ 12:52 AM
i guess i cld wallow in self defeat
but i'm too aimless for even that
can someone juz slap me awake?
attempted to try to kinda waste myself on fri...didnt work
ending up doing clean up more than anythng else
i guess manu taught me something
paul scholes certainly did
a rather random thought @ 4:03 AM
Let's dance in style,
let's dance for a while
Heaven can wait we're only watching the skies
Hoping for the best but expecting the worst
Are you gonna drop the bomb or not?
Let us die young or let us live forever
We don't have the power
but we never say never
Sitting in a sandpit,
life is a short trip
Music's for the sad men
Can you imagine when this race is won
Turn our golden faces into the sun
Praising our leaders we're getting in tune
Music's played by the mad men
Forever young,
I want to be forever young
Do you really wanna live forever,
forever, forever?
Forever young,
I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever,
forever, forever?
Some are like water,
some are like the heat
Some are a melody,
some are the beat
Sooner or later they all will be gone
Why don't they stay young
It's hard to get old without a cause
I don't want to perish like a fleeing horse
Youth's like diamonds in the sun
And diamonds are forever
So many adventures couldn't happen today
So many songs we forgot to play
So many dreams swinging out of the blue
We let them come true
Forever young,
I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever,
forever, forever?
Forever young,
I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever,
forever, forever?
Forever young,
I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever,
forever, forever?
Forever young,
I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever, forever?
a rather random thought @ 2:24 AM
its a sad thing really
i spent a gd 20 mins staring at the screen
i cant put it in words
its not nerves
i'm jus a lil heavy hearted
the rught word would be miserable
not so much for the results
more for having to go back to aj
and having to deal with the sorrow that comes with the regret for having to go back
a rather random thought @ 12:11 AM
i think its time to stop running
firstly there nowhere left
secondly i'm a lil tired
just fuck it and let me handle the life after
i'm tired of not being able to sleep soundly for the past few days
and no matter how i cramp my schedule
it fucking always manages to surface in my mind
i'm just hoping the pain would be short
a rather random thought @ 1:25 AM
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