Tuesday, January 30, 2007
oh i realised sometimes you have to be careful of what you wished for i sorta openly hoped a job would come and find me and damm well it rammed straight into me at least the place's not too bad but i wont like it if they transferred me elsewhere but at least i get to see different weird ppl everyday
hmm pretty weird been reading alot of stuff about decisions and choices and how they sucked and how they sometimes dont change anything for the better read somewhere tt "in dreams you never do get to make decisons.either tt or there never a decision for you to make at all.you just move as your dream dictates" aint tt true for life as well
life's is a friggin public good it takes a bloody hell lotsa effort to exclude the shit parts out just like decisions i have to make,may it be a hobson's choice or anything else just like trying to sieve out the fact tt i gotta get my results soon i'll just put tt lil piece of info somewhere in a dustly corner at the back of my head
Thursday, January 25, 2007
oh damm i landed myself a job without even wanting one i think its a big mess i think my mind's a big mess sometimes life just pushes you along u arent given a choice at crossroads now how am i gonna get myself outta this
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
hmmm this is one of the few rare moments i feel bit like trash i'm like being a bum...but wats wrong with bumming arnd for a while i hate how i cant wipe tt smile from my face even when its crappy inside came back and went thru my mail missed a hell lot and not the least of those were the meetup with dara like mutherfuckin i totally cannot believe i'm not there fuck fuck fuck seen many ppl change over the years but what just really surprised me is the change in dansen read a few articles from his blog and he seemed so politically and socially charged and aware i'm just drifting in the opposite direction what happened to the guy tt used to like those stuff? at least i still had that brain up in my skull active enough for some good reasoning and sense unlike some dimwit person i know pls pratice what you preach dont be a disgrace for my sake hmm everyone's getting a job i'm sorta needing a lot of time and space to sort things out i need to go on a long walk kinda like the walk i had in china walked alone the whole day in the "ancient city" area i cld do with some walking here..need a lil air too bad the weather's bad... and its hot..i think i cant take sg weather anymore played a lil tennis with qx tday the heat was totally unbearable the sun was nuts thinking of going to all the museums.. to sugei buloh botanical grnds to walk a lil turn my backs on all the hustle and crowds oh and fuck the rach yamagata's concert cost a bomb..$88 so tt's two years of regrets at the mosiac i think left at such a wrong time everything looks so weird here i see ppl in sch uniforms guessed i misssed the time when ppl ste things straight noe wats the problem? i want to juz keep walking the fact is tt i need a job go figure
nothing like good old deathcab to lighten things up fell in love with this song when i had nothing else but my pod to listen to in china
"I remember when the days were long and the nights when the living room was on the lawn. Constant quarreling the childish fitsand our clothes in a pile on the ottoman. All the slander and double speak were only foolish attempts to show you did not mean,anything but the blatant proof was your lips touching mine in the photobooth.
And as the summers ending the cold air rush your hard heart away. You were so condescending, and this is all that's left scraping paper to document. I've packed a change of clothes and it's time to move on.
Cup your mouth to compress the sound, skinny dipping with the kids from a nearby town. And everything that I said was true as the flashes blinded us in the photobooth. Well I lost track when those words were said, you took the wheel and you steered us into my bed, and soon we woke and I walked you home and it was pretty clear that is was hardly love.
And as the summers ending, the cold air will rush your hard heart away. You were so condescending, and this is all that's left scraping paper to document. I've packed a change of clothes and it's time to move on. And as the summers ending, the cold air will rush your hard heart away. You were so condescending, as the alcohol drained the days. And as the summers ending, the cold air will rush your hard heart away. You were so condescending. And this is all that's left, The empty bottles spent cigarettes so pack a change of clothes 'cause its time to move on."--Photobooth
stuff on shanghai and other places nxt time i dont think i want to marr tt post with the mood i'm in
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
ok so this is the 2nd and probably the last post from china oh and i didnt mention the sunrise on the mt i have got no bloody word for the whole experience the lil ball of light rising on the horizon bit by bit and the ray of light(i mean for real-like RAYS) reflected and refracted thru the ice on the trees u noe the weird thing is i half expected to be hit with some profound thoughts or some new insights intead my mind was pretty blank and the only thing running thru my mind was how i cld make this moment last and a lil regret tt i cldnt share this amlost magical(cliche, i noe) view with anyone else
emm ok so this trip's one heck of a new experience in more ways than one for one, i didnt came on a "tourist-y" sorta trip i actually lived here for about a week after the trip up tt mt got the slightest of idea on how it'll probaly be if i had to go feed to roos went a lil to the office-blazer,shirt,pants,the works seen how the plant worked i totally familarised my self with the workings over here streets,places,cafes seen many ppl,got to know a few they weird thing is i keep seeing recurring faces of someone i knew in sg ha u have got no idea how totally weird it is
but i have to say i had a pretty gd life frigging gd food every day which wasnt a pretty gd reflection of how other chinese lived given their norm pay they earn a lil more than sg-dollar for dollar but the food we ate avg to like 150 per pax felt tt the income gap here's horrible i'm not sure bout the policies here but i dun reckon the govt doing much went to look at the land,houses and cars here too the weird thing is that they have got no public housing round where my uncle lived all condos and pvt given how my uncle's and dad's accociates were toking bout how they are speculating the rich gets richer like REALLY fast while the poor probably nibble at the sides its kinda excting here being here it self i cld really see and feel the city growing,vibes and pulse of the place SOARING property prices,living std,etc and tt's even thou my stay's here only like 2weeks its a totally diff feeling frm sg-now kinda connects when the the person i met on the hk-shenzen trip said tt sg's atmosphere's kinda slack and u noe what this place's like jointly developed by sg so its has the looks of a bloody prime area in sg but of course its no where as clean and the air pollution is still horrible however i'll still have to say its a place unlike any i've ever seen-it has no big city vibe unlike shanghai,hk but u can totally feel its gonna be a impt place someday and if every city start to devloped like this place sg do need to try to run a lil ahead
k i'll update bout my lil trip in the shuzhou old city area alone(which was really personal) and the trip to shanghai when i get back to sg
right now i hav a lil less than 12 hours to the flight to shanghai and hmm i hate to say this but i think i will miss the place and esp so when i got familiar to the area and i've climatise to the env. my uncle told me i'll be a lil pissed off at the temp when i go back and i do believe i'll be true i'm totaly ok with the temp here being 0-6 think i'll hide myself in the air con everyday and even thou i do miss sg i'll hate to leave this place alight i'll leave the rest till i get back to sg
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
alright ahahha blogging in china pretty damm lucky my uncle has a computer here
so the mountain wasnt exactly "vertical limts" but nevertheless its was damm fun and fucking beautiful yeah the first day was like totally snow mountain BEAUUUUTIFUL the day after when it stopped snowing wass damm nice too esp when we ventured off the path and walked on some cliff with a sheer drop OMG it was DAMMMMM dAMMMM DAMMM beautiful the view was like "THE VIEW" and there was no annoying china men arnd and the ice that formed on the trees was like making windchime like sounds and the sound of the stream ahhh.... i just totally wanted to lie there and not move a muscle its like the sound my studs on the rocks juz sounded so wrong and artificial there i so wanted to lie there all by myself like away from everything away frm the noisy and rude chinamen away from the noise tt wernt supposed to be there away frm all my troubles away from everythng and guess what there was clouded leopard on the same friggin mountain like OMG like a bloody dream come true too bad i did actually see them...tt wld be like "speechless" bet its was infinte times better thana day at the botanical gardens,bt timah or sungei buloh oh my sungei buloh when i go back is gonna pale so much in comparison
updates again nxt time
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
i dont know where to start here leaving in bout 6 hours time? to climb some mountain in china... this is randomness or spontaneity at its peak i think i just did the ultimate act in spontaneity i said yes to a trip up some mountains in china and guess wad the trip's like tml i had a grand total of one day to get myself prepared i didnt even tell eveyone where i'm gg wow i like the way i'm starting the new year
2006 one one of the most hellish year i had i had lil if not none of any sorta gd memories i totally dies in aj on all fronts grinded thru every single second of living hell the only year tt came close to how bad it was was way back in 2001 when someone in the fam died maybe i changed a lil in the year grew a lil or did i? at least the later part of the year was a lil kinder
and seriously like seriously i am really thankful for all the company i had to get thru this torrid year like seriously everyone lets hope we'r all be there for a long time those tt kept me gg in aj just by being there a letting me know i had a life outside and effectively preventin me from going nuts the manu/soccer/bush gang..bug,qx,hy,dtan,lor,ben...taking up tennis at the later prt of the year was nice..now fer lesson?maybe some beach place hols too and i was seriosuly dreading tt the grp will dissolve after the hols two years ago ha how two friggin year have past =)
the cat high ppl...andy,hj,wq,chew,hy,jes,justin hk was prolly the best time i had in the whole year and the many other time like andy's race,birthdays or the many random time we went out were no less fun eh and no need to pledge to be better friends lah no needa to be so really formal... after all arent we effectively family?hahha and i have to thank andy lah even thou it was juz like the lillest of lil talk he effectively changed some stuff that he might not even know mid way thru my season em fb and sc also was nice meetin ur c told ya the later part of the year was alot ,ore pleasent
and ha mr phang i noe u'll be reading this lah hey thanks alot also lah u were prolly the only guy tt i really bothered to let into my life in aj and ha fer gg to the retest even thou u had no reason to hola sry i'm like not on the com or the phone so many thousand times pool at sicc soon
aiya dunno why i'm like sooo bloody introspective also lah prolly cause i fell really empty for missing all the stuff before some of the peeps go into army
this years sorta different frm the rest i hope i dont feel lost maybe the 13 day things for me to sort out my thinking and like always some resolutions i'll keep it short: swear less spend less get a job puncutality pls
but seriously i had a blast in the last week of last year and hoho same old line didnt regret any bit at all i wont have traded time with those friends or anything in the world yikes kinda over aint it ha
i'm sure i missed outta alot i had set out to write but well.....
and oh yeah p.s. for those regular visitors and overnight stayers annual fees have been increased this year ha pls pay up to ensure u be able to enjoy the amenities for another year
|
|