a rather random thought @ 1:40 AM
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
yeah despite already spending a good half a year at aj....i really dont noe if its the right place for me...there is juz no feeling for the sch man...would i be happier in sa? or cj even? i'll never noe...and man i cant even pinpoint if its aj or juz jc life in general 's screwing things up...my ct are a total flop...the hiatus from the stressed laden exams period too damm long and the laxness jus creeping into my every joint..time management a total bullshit now and i cant complete any of my paper on time...and somehow the feeling of taking exams in aj's such a far cry frm taking exams in cat high...i cant help but reminiscence bout the times taking exam in cat high...its like i'll go to school on the train with the gang of guys and somehow we'll all be carrying scrapes of our notes while juz crapping and joking around trying to make everyone feel less nervous....the steps up to the assembly grounds would be like filled with guys holding notes and stuff...the air con hall...the prayers before the papers...the encouragement and "good luck" and the guys tt are beside you while you take the papers...aj juz feels so alien and foreign.. hostile even?(dunno some hoe this word sorta clicked with my feelings)...the only things keeping stuff from totally falling apart is my ccas
and the thing bout vanity...is it the compulsion to look good? or not to look ugly?...juz wtf is happening....somehow i juz totally dun give a damm bout how i look right now...felt i was soo much more concerned bout how i looked in cat high.....gees wats happening to me..........dammit
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:: 25/05/88 ::
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:: Anderson JC ::
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